Letting-go-fobia

It's always hard to pick up a subject to write about after several weeks of no-blogging. There's so many things happening all the time that the blog becomes so little. All sorts of feelings, thougts and emotions inside me. I'm not trying to figure them out anymore. I decided to let myself go with the flow, enjoy the challenging, thrilling ride my life is these days.

There also a lot of memories that come to my mind espacially during this period of the year when there are "some rather very unhappy aniversaries." The aniversarie of a boy with forbbiden future that turned into a man with a hidden past. (the details are too many to be shared here).

I think in the end we all have our dues to pay, things and/or experiences that mark us forever. I feel sometimes that no matter what happens or how beatifull life can get at times I have my own deomons to chase, maybe we all do in the end, I don't know...

I don't think that 1. you can have a fulfilling life without being at piece with yourself and 2. you're gonna be at piece with yourself without accepting your past. This the pin-point of the problem for me right now learning to let go.

Tired of this,
Marius

My song today: Bruce Dickinson - Change of Heart

Mighty me :))

A nice and vey funny virtual gift I received from an indian friend. You can find it by clicking right here.

Marius.

Failure

I don't know about others but to me life has a very cyclical way of going. It happens every single time to fail when I am most confident about myself and my powers to do the impossible :) There are some things in life people never seem to learn even if they get in trouble every single time 'cause of it. I guess to me pushing my limits too far over the edge is one of them.

Yap, I started my term of President recently, I also had a part time job from the desire of supporting my family and I am during my session of exams. AIESEC is my top priority right now and I don't wanna fail exams anymore so the job went to No 3, some expectations weren't set correctly, the long story short I didn't have the results the company expected and I got fired.

I must say that feeling the taste of my limits isn't a very sweet sensation but hey, if u don't know your limits, how will u ever overcome them? Plus, I learnt once more that:

1. You shouldn't do things because you have to but because u want to. (I didn't like that job anyways :D)

2. You can NOT do them all, as good as you'll ever get, prioritisation has to be part of life;

3. It's not the failure that matters, it's our reaction to failure that makes the difference.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Marius.